Inspired Speech
Michelle Mangold
July 16, 2012
The Second Time We Sang
I really had been struggling since the last time we had sang on Tuesday, I really wanted to sing again! To help prepare I went to the House of Hope and Healing first! I want to be free, I want to walk in total freedom so that nothing gets between what God wants to do and me! I am done with being hindered, as far as it depends on me I want to be free to choose His way, His attitude, His words, His timing, Him!
Something as simple as singing should not cause the insides to jump around, the vocal chords to dry out and the swirling thoughts of failure to swarm you to the point of wanting to run and hide! I, Michelle really could care less what people think, but when these things are grabbing at you trying to choke the air right out of you, then that distraction makes focus seem almost unobtainable.
When I went to the House I said, I don’t feel afraid, but fear has gripped me for years and I am feeling like I am being pulled backwards and I so desperately want to go forwards. We prayed and fought, then I came to class. Everyone in here has come so far, they are doing so great, at the very beginning the first person who went was Carrie! She was not going to sing, she was going to talk. What she proceeded to do, brought such joy to my heart I could have left and been completed! She encouraged everyone in the room! Wow encouragement.....that is something that outside of these walls does not exist in most circles. It has definately not been in mine! What she did freed me more than I ever thought I could get by watching another person encourage others! It gave me hope that good can come to us all!
Almost by the end, I asked to sing, it was burning in my heart to ask God to break our hearts more for others. Although my vocal chords were not completely functioning, the death grip I had felt two days earlier had gone, I felt safe, unafraid and the urgency to sing was greater than what may happen to me! I am grateful for Heather and in agreement with Andre that Heather should be well blessed by us for what she helps us do! I also am grateful for all of us being willing enough to be exposed and transparent so that GOOD can come through! May you all be forever blessed and changed and reach your destinies in Him!
Here is another blog you might like that goes along with this one! It is called This One's For You!
Why Revival? I would still be plagued with fear without it!
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