The Time is Now

I am a person who asks many questions and am one who can’t turn a blind eye to anything. I have set in pews for more than 20 years and still I see the lines of right and wrong getting blurred. I always wonder why?

I don’t understand it. Is it going to take losing everything before we, as a people care for someone other than ourselves? Why are we comfortable with walking by people who hurt with blinders on? Why do we want to forget their pain? Why do we wait for someone else to show up to give a hand? Why, when we hear of children being sold into sex trafficking, do we still act like our world is ok? Why have we allowed the voice of racism to rise above truth? Their isn’t racism, there is hatred that knows no boundaries and has no limits. Why would anyone ever turn color into something that it’s not? Why? Are we really that blind? Little girls and boys of all colors are being sold into sex slavery while we drink our coffee this morning and color has nothing to do with it. We need to wake up and see straight.

Why would we rather hate than love? Why do we fuel fires instead of putting them out? Why do we give ourselves excuses for our cold hearts? Why? Why do we attend churches that think more of reaching the world, than our own families that are falling apart? Why do we think that one trip to Israel makes us super spiritual, when everything around us is dying? Why are we so wrapped up in our lives, that we could care less for another human being? Why do we believe that loving others only means the ones we like? Why do we always want to be noticed and admired by our peers and are willing to kill to get noticed? Why do we constantly brag about every little detail of our small existence, all the while our next door neighbor struggles to eat and we haven’t noticed them at all? Why?

It is time to stop being a Stepford wife or husband and break out of the mold that we’ve allowed ourselves to be shaped into! It’s time to care! It’s time to love everyone! It’s time to get our focus off of ourselves and see the ones who are crying out for help! It is time to be real! It’s time to be faith in action! It’s time to be a warrior! It’s time for our battle cry to cry for someone else! It’s time for the tides to change! It’s time for the weak to be strong! It’s time for His cause to be sought after! It’s time for families to unite! It’s time for the orphans to get adopted! It’s time for the hungry to be fed! It’s time for justice to prevail! It’s time for all to answer the call! It’s time!

Open Up Our Eyes

This is a cry from the very depths of my soul. A cry to my God, Father, Counselor, Creator of Heaven and Earth to awaken the church in a deep and revolutionizing way.

Over the last 3 years, I have been on a journey. I have had to stop the direction I was headed and was forced to take another route. My health was failing and my body needed a solution that was real. During these times of rest and extreme overhaul of my habits, I have had many encounters with God. I am going to be as honest and transparent as I can be. What I write may surprise some, anger others, and bring hope to the rest. Here is the beginning of my journey.

At the time that my symptoms started I was working 7 days a week, attending church four days a week and volunteering 1-4 days per week as well. I was physically drained, emotionally weak, and I felt like a failure most of the time. Nothing that I was doing was producing real life. In fact, although many great things were happening in a spiritual realm, it was only skin deep.

One day I clearly heard the Lord say, ” I never called you to be the sacrifice”. I stopped, pondered, considered and contemplated those words. I realized in minutes that I had become that old Michelle, who can outwork anyone with a smile on her face. Why, because I felt driven that God was not enough to make me something of real value, that I had to work harder than anyone to be, who He called me to be. So, I started saying no to things and making different choices.

The next word of correction that I heard was about Facebook. The Lord said to me, “who are you posting those things for”? I said, “people who don’t go to my church”. He then said, “they don’t want to see any of that. Michelle, why don’t you post what they would want to see”. I preceded to remove everything off my Facebook page regarding my church, church service, God encounters, testimonies, scriptures, and Jesus inspiring posts. I then posted a photo of our family. In seconds my family and friends from around the world started liking my post. I was saddened that I had been so clueless.

He started showing me how people who don’t go to church will never be won over on Facebook, by a religious saying. In fact, all religious sayings make us look…..religious. I want to clarify that I used to belong to a church organization that said, “we are not religious, religions like Catholics, Baptists …. now they are religious”. But, what I have found is that religion is bigger than any church title, it creeps into every home, school, business, sport, or association. There is no limit to extensions of religion, except the limits that we put on it.

If the goal is to evangelize or even be a friend, shouldn’t we show ourselves as friendly? I am convinced that it will never happen by way of any religious jargon. We can only cause people to want to know us through the love of Christ, which is pure, genuine and unpolluted. Every form of religion actually kills the desire of people to want to know us or Jesus. Religion is ugly, arrogant, prideful and repulses everyone, except other religious folks.

Religious folks from any sect, usually compete with one another in their righteous acts. I have seen an abundance of things written on Facebook about religious deeds. All the details of a non-christian put out there for the world to read, with the Christian appearing as the hero. If someone wrote on Facebook about me, the way I have seen written about others, I would never want to talk to that person again. I would feel like I was a notch on someone’s religious belt. It is easy to fall into that trap when we get rejected by people for loving God. Then when we finally find people we can talk to about Him, it sometimes gets out of control as we become more zealous. Lord help us to see.

When I did hair, a fellow church members almost got me fired from my job. Her religious concepts were so obnoxious, that the owner of the salon I was working at had a meeting with me. She was kind, generous, and gave me directions on how she expected her salon to be run. She didn’t want religious anything in her salon. But, she loved God, and spoke of Him often in private settings with me. She had lost her husband to cancer and longed for more of God. But, she didn’t associate religious acts with loving God.

Listening to Christian music, praying for people publicly, reading a bible, going to church, and talking like a religious person does not make anyone a Christian. I had to gracefully stop all of my activities with this fellow church goer. We were supposed to be doing makeovers together, but religion got in the way of our success. I have learned if I want anyone to talk to me and listen to anything I have to say, all religious jargon must go. Otherwise, I will be remembered as the clueless, arrogant, self-righteous, wanna-be.

The 3rd thing that He deposited in me was the concept of humility. I have been on a twenty year process of humility. Sincerely, I thought I was O.K. in that department. I found out, I wasn’t. Here are my thoughts on humility. When we are humble we possess these characteristics.

1. We are eager to listen and learn from anyone, especially from people of a lower position.

2. We remove the idea that arrival is possible, obtainable or the goal. The goal is total reliance on God to achieve anything. We can only boast on His abilities. This is not condemnation, this is humility.

3. We look for the good in others and are drawn to others because of the goodness we see in them.

4. We long to be like children, simple in heart, submissive in attitude.

5. When asked to do something we are grateful that we are available for the task.

6. There is no task too low for us to do.

7. We don’t carry comparison charts.

8. We do esteem others higher than ourselves.

9. We don’t feel the need to correct, talk, show, tell, help, advise or re-align anyone, except ourselves.

10. We give everyone the benefit of any doubt.

Here is the last thing that I will discuss today. One day the Lord said to me, “Michelle, what do you think people would think of someone who attends church 4 days per week, but has no time for other people. Other people would be children, spouse, co-workers, neighbors, friends, and family from around the world. As I sat and pondered that question, I started to cry and truly hated what I had become. I realized what a joke I was and that my walk with Jesus would never be seen because, my priorities were wrong.

Here are the priorities I am striving for now.

1. Take care of my relationship with God.

2. Take care of me.

3. Take care of my relationships with the people I live with, my children, family, and friends around the world.

4. Be friendly, approachable, and full of joy daily. Pursue my God given assignments with joy in and out of my house.

5. Notice, notice, notice others.

7. Give my all, in all that I do. But, not to the detriment of myself.

8. Attend my church and be faithful to it.

My goal in writing this is to bring illumination to the wrong directions of pure hearted people. I am not here to judge you. I pray that what was shown to me, may reveal things that you may need to alter. I write this with a broken heart, that in my zeal, like Paul, I missed the mark. Since I have started implementing these basic truths, I feel the entire world opening up for me. There is not a person that I can’t converse with, and I get approached by strangers everywhere I go. I used to approach people, now children, teens and adults come up to me and start talking to me first. Many times people will talk to me about God. I have been able to give my testimony many times and pray for tons of people now. Why? I put away my religious speech and put their needs above my own. I don’t need to talk about Jesus to feel important, I get to talk about Him with people who long to hear about Him.

I could say more but this should get us started on a different course of balance and vitality with purpose. You have a call on your life. Your call is to be the best you that God can design. I pray that we all give up our religion and find the call that Jesus gave us long before we entered this planet. It is a call that produces all the gifts of the spirit, flowing in love and normal living. I can honestly say, that had I not changed I don’t know where I would be? But, because I did change, everything in my life is getting better than I could have imagined, including my health.

May you start your journey this day. Selah

What Would You Do If?

What would you do if, you lost your ability to work, in an instant. What would you do if, you thought you were getting better only to be told, you have just gotten worse. What would you do if, you did not qualifying for most financial programs available. Would you do if, you were full of, stress, worry, anxiety, coupled with an illness that is keeping you in bed, unable to walk. Can you imagine? How would you feel? What would you do? Really, what would you do? Here is David and Angie’s story. I pray that it compels you to act and do, what they can’t do for themselves.

Here is a photo of David, when he was younger, a single parent of 3 boys. He has always been a hard working man, who took pride in providing for his family. Since finding out 10 years ago that he had type 2 diabetes, he has continued to work and provide for his wife, Angela, son, Morgan, and other children, as they moved in and out of the house.

He is generous, in time and abilities, and has been in many ministries at his church. Although none of us are perfect,  his one area of perfection, has always been a strong work ethic. He has worked his whole life, many times 7 days per week. Up until a few months ago, that was his life.

He was scheduled to have a surgery to repair sores on the bottom of his feet. They thought a few weeks off would be enough. Now after 2 months of no income, and looking at possibly another 6 months to recover, things are looking bleak.

David is unable to walk. Yesterday, he was just released out of the hospital, for the third time . His feet has, had, many surgeries. He uses his feet to work. David, is a truck driver, and has owned his own business.

We are trying to raise money, so that they will not loose their home, during his time of recovery. When you have used up all of your resources, and the doctor’s report says, ‘you have a ways to go’, it is a tough pill to swallow.

I know first hand, what it is like to become ill suddenly. Not knowing when you will go back to work, makes recovery almost impossible. It is a life, that no one wants to live. The bills stack up, the food become’s scarce, and the phone and mailbox, become scary things. The only one calling, is someone who wants money you don’t have. The mailbox is no longer inviting because, it is full of bills with late notices, and shut off notices. If it is summer, you don’t know if you can endure the heat. If it is winter, you’re not sure if the pipes will freeze.

I am only doing this because, yesterday I read a blog about a person who is living this life. She was not my sister but, she explained in detail what it is like, when your life goes through the wringer, and no one reaches out to help. Then when you try to get help, often you get  condemning words and attitudes. This woman experienced a kind gesture, and it gave me hope that maybe others would be kind too. Here is a link to her story. Maybe she can paint a picture, better than I.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/andrea-gardner/to-the-woman-behind-me-in_b_5082769.html

You may be asking, can’t the government help, can’t he get unemployment, can’t he get disability? Unfortunately, all those things, even if you qualify for, takes a lot of red-tape. People can loose everything, before those things kick in. Do we really want to stand by and do nothing, as people’s lives are being torn apart, because of their inability to work?

Thank you for reading, thank you for praying, thank you for sharing, thank you for giving!

Here is a link that you can donate to a fund, to raise money for this family, my sister and brother-in-law. We are praying for a speedy recovery, and for all of their needs to be met.

http://www.gofundme.com/ao55vw

God Bless you all for taking the time to read this.

Let me pray for you. Lord, bring my friends to a greater awareness of your presence. Let the love in your hearts be shed abroad in our hearts. Let who you are Lord, lead us, guide us, and comfort us, in all we do. Thank you Lord for your leading us besides quiet waters and restoring our souls.

Psalm 23

1 The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2     He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3     he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
    for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
    through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
    for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
    in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
    my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
    all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
    forever.

3 Points To Review About Religious Pride

I want to be vivid. I am broken in heart, and crying in my spirit, as I write these words. I am coming from a very deep and passionate place of praise, to my Lord and savior by which I write.

When I first met the Lord, I was passionate about Him. I ran with the greatest of speed. I devoured the Bible day and night. My goal was to read the word of God, 40 hours per week. I never reached my goal, however, I read my bible, sung praise songs, and prayed daily for so many hours per day, you wouldn’t believe and it’s not really important.

Why am I telling you all this? I can promise you, it is not to say that I did anything right. It is not to say, you should do that too. I am only telling you this to prepare you, for the reason I am writing today. This will be the most humiliating thing I have ever shared with you.

7 years had passed, as I had been chasing after God. My husband, did not share the same habits I had. He had been raised in a church, I had not. Because, he was not running at the same speed, I became disillusioned about our marriage. I wanted to pastor a church, lead worship, pray for the sick, be an evangelist, and go on mission trips. There was no sacrifice too high, to give to this great  Lord, Jesus.

I did everything I knew how to do. I prayed that my husband would change. I talked to him about my passion, and asked him to come on board. According to him, he was on board. I never seen him read his bible, pray or worship. I knew, based on the word of God, when we love Him, we obey him. I did not see, an obedient, on fire, can’t wait to please God, husband.

I can honestly say, my attitude about my husband became worse and worse with each day. As, I became more radiant and passionate about Jesus, he remained the same, sometimes worse. I was going to ministry school, and I was part of an international ministry called, ” Cleansing Stream Ministries”. I had gone to one year of bible college, and felt like a failure, because my husband did not share the same passion as I did.

I went to a, Cleansing Stream Retreat. At the retreat, everyone worships, and then receives prayer. We always pray against pride first, before any other category. When it was my turn for prayer, I told the person praying for me, that I needed a lot of prayer for this. Although my heart was pure for God, I knew I struggled with this. They brought 4 people to pray for me. I stood there as 4 people prayed for me, and for a long time I felt no change. They would stop and ask, “do you feel like you are free from this’? I said, “no”!

I wanted to remain free from frustration, so I said, “please keep praying”! Within a few minutes, I saw my husband’s face, Jesus very clearly said to me, ” you are no better than he is”. “Just because you read your bible, pray, and worship, hours each day, does not make you better than your husband.” “You are not better than anyone, because you do those things”. “Spending time in my word, does not make you, “better”, than anyone”.

I fell to the ground and cried. The religious pride had been removed, and I saw myself in full view. Religious pride is an ugly, detestable thing. It harms innocent people, and is counter productive for the work of Christ. So many Christians are full of religious pride, and like me, don’t see it. My heart broke, as I laid there exposed, to a living, loving, restoring God. My heart was not breaking for me, it broke for my husband. I thought, how has he put up with me? I am not that important. I don’t get it, I would have left me, along time ago.

When the session was over, I went to the pay phone, and called my husband, and apologized. I told him how much I loved him, and that I was sorry. He was shocked and happy, yet had no clue why I was saying what I was saying.

What is your story? Are you a Christian? Do you know Christians? Are you a victim of self-righteous Christians? What can we do?

How can we detect, a religious mindset, that aims to destroy the work of Christ?

1. A religious mindset aims to destroy. Is, what you are doing, helping others love Christ and people more, or do you bring forth critical attitudes? Attitudes that justify your behavior and tears down others?

2. A religious mindset believes they have something to offer and it makes them feel good, (prideful), when they offer it. Like, I pray for someone, then have to tell the world of my great praying techniques. Do you have to feel important, and valued around your pears at church? Do you do things in front of others, so they can see what you do? That is religious pride.

3. A religious mindset will stop at nothing, to achieve it’s goal of destruction. If we are using any form of manipulation to achieve our goals, we are way off base. Arguing, fighting, name calling, using scripture as a weapon, and bringing harm to others, to prove we are right, is not advancing the cause of Christ. Do you plot, scheme and meditate on proving a point, for religious reasons? Are you willing to sacrifice people in your life, if they don't agree with you? Do you tear down others, and destroy people's reputation, to prove a point?

Points to remember: When Jesus is involved, restoration happens. When he is not involved, division happens. The whole point of Jesus is to restore…..relationships. If we are harming people with our, “righteousness“, we are not righteous at all. Righteous means, right standing with God. We can’t be standing right with Him, if we are bringing forth division, because we aim to be, “right”. That is called pride and arrogance, not righteousness.

In closing: I pray that the body of Christ will do whatever it takes, to become unimportant, so that the real cause of Christ, will become the most important thing to us. If you are not a Christian, and have been disillusioned by the whole idea, I just want to say on behalf of all the dumb dumb's, like me, “I am sorry if we have ever hurt you, because we were more concerned about being right, than bringing forth a ,”right standing with Christ”. Please forgive me and know that Christ is way cooler, than anyone I have ever met in church, including, but not limited to, myself. I have sincerely learned the importance of insignificance.

I pray that you will desire to be insignificant too. Please leave a comment, question, or praise. I really want to see us all do the work of Christ, and pride has to go, for that to happen. I am not that important.

Free to Love Again

Hello!  It is my hope that this message can spare you many years of heartache. If someone would have graced me with the experience of what I am about to share with you, it may have saved me almost twenty years of pain. Let your freedom begin, now.

This is a photograph taken after my dad had open heart surgery, at a family reunion.

In December 1994, Christmas had passed and in a few days, my two boys would be going to their grandpa's, my dad's. We had already had Christmas at my dad and Linda's house. It was the first year that we had spent Christmas day with my dad. Why? My mom had passed away earlier that year in March. My brother, sister, and I had always spent Christmas day with her, since their divorce. We had scheduled a special time for my boys to spend with my dad, as my dad and Linda hardly ever got to see the boys. Much time and care was taken so that the boys could spend some time with my dad, Fred, and Linda.

A few days before they were to go, I got a call from Linda. She said to me, "Michelle don't bother bringing the boys over."  I instantly felt sick to my stomach. I didn't say anything as she continued to speak. I was then informed that I would never be allowed over to their house ever again. I had no idea why she was saying the things she was saying? It was as if she was telling a story about me that I never knew. The anger, disapproval, and accusations, filled the airways through the phone and I had no idea why?

At the end of being told about their attitudes towards me, I was told, I needed God!  I hung up the phone, fell in a heap on the floor, and started crying tears that would last over the coarse of almost twenty years. I cannot even begin to describe how I felt, but it was as though I fell into a dark hole of lifelessness. Pulling myself off from the floor was almost impossible. I groped from day to night, and felt as though someone had just removed all the life out of my body. Breathing became a chore and the feeling of death, pain, and incomparable heartache was ever present in my existence.

I was not angry, I was devastated beyond description. Everything in my life went black. I was consumed in an agony that could not be removed. My thoughts were plagued with the heart break, anguish, and severe loss. I was totally ruined with feelings of hopelessness. The thought of not being wanted by a parent was something I never thought I would know. It is a pain that cannot be described.

 I did what I always did, tried to push past the pain. I was working, playing, watching movies, drinking, hanging out with friends, laughing, and absorbing myself with my children -- nothing worked and the only thoughts that plagued me throughout this time were thoughts of suicide.  I thought daily about ways of dying. I would think to myself, 'If I am really as bad as Linda says, then I should just remove myself from this world, and save a lot of people great pain.' I was plagued with condemning thoughts and no matter what I did, they followed me where ever I went.

After copious contemplation, the day came when I could not go on any longer. The pain, of being rejected, by my own father tormented me like blight. It would not go away. There was no relief.  I loved my dad. I wanted my dad in my life more than ever. He was the only parent I had. Now my children had no grandparents on my side. Other people tried to be there for me, but I yearned for someone to really love me. I did not want a substitute. I wanted my dad.

I had tried to find God as Linda suggested, not because she had suggested it, but because I just figured the maker of the Universe maybe could help. Every time I tried to read my Bible, I would get lost in a progression of pain, and could not see the words as my pain blocked them. Finally, the day came, with anger, frustration, and pain, I yelled at God, and said, "if You're real, You'd better reveal Yourself to me now, or I am out of here."

Instantly, the spirit of God came down and started working on me, my heart, and my life. So much happened in that moment that it is hard to describe, but because of what God started that day, I can write this blog. He gave me a reason to live, and revealed some of the answers to the questions I had been asking.

The first thing God showed me was not to blame another person for what was going on in my life. I was the only one who could decide who I was going to be and what decisions I would make. Quite honestly, my relationship with my dad and anyone else, could have been restored that day if I would have believed what Jesus was telling me. The reason it took me twenty years to get beyond the pain was because I just didn't believe I was the problem.

Now to clear up any confusion, I never intentionally did anything to harm my dad. I did not even do what they accused me of doing. However, listen to this and believe it. In order to find healing in our hearts we must accept all responsibility for anything we have done or did not do. Let me put this another way. In order for our hearts to be free of pain, we must change the way we think and respond, in order to bring harmony in our relationships. Being free from pain depends on me and me alone. No one can decide but me, how I choose to feel about things. If I wanted, I could still be hurt today about the words that were spoken to me, about me. Consequently, I have decided to love, regardless of whatever someone says about me.

One of the things that I did was to pray for my dad and Linda. It wasn't until I courageously started praying for a restored relationship that I saw things in a different light. What I have learned about restoration has changed my life completely. Here is what restoration means:  The Biblical meaning of restoration is to return all things to their previous pure state. Ancient Hebrew legal definition of restoration was to not only repay what was lost, but to make it better than before. Job received more than he had ever owned after his trials.

The relationship that I had with my father and step-mother was never great. It was strained, unstable, and weak in many areas. Why? I never knew who my dad and Linda were. I treated them like they were the parents and I was the child. I believe in order to have a healthy relationship with anyone, we first must know who the people are. How can we have a great relationship with anyone when we don't invest time in getting to know them? When we care about others, we long to hear about them. We ask many questions and want to hear their point of view. Unfortunately, in most relationships, this is not the case. We all want to be heard and all the while we need to listen.

Again, I never did anything to harm them on purpose. It was this recurring concept that became my stumbling block. I couldn't get beyond my own experience and there was no room to see the other side. It wasn't until God started showing me His viewpoint on certain people and situations, that I could begin to see the light.

Many times we create our own pain.  Not by what we do, but by what we do not do. I was too focused on what I did, that I never even contemplated what I didn't do. I did not take the time to go over and see my dad, and ask him, "Why do you feel the way that you do?" Instead, I held onto my pain like it was a trophy, defending my right to feel wounded -- not to others, just in my heart. When we do this, we not only increase our pain, but we set ourselves up to fail in every relationship we encounter. Do yourself a favor and look at who you are and who you are not.

Last summer, the Lord gave me this key.  He asked me, "Where in My word does it say anything about how you are to be treated?" Then He said," I only say how you are to treat others." The Bible says in Luke 6:31 "Treat others the same way you want them to treat you. 32 "If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them.  When we truly start to make our world about others, not ourselves, that is when the doors to restoration can come in like a flood. Once I started to believe and respond to that concept, that was when the final keys to what I needed for the restoration process to begin. The final key was to see from my dad's perspective.

Freedom from pain can only begin when we allow God to speak openly with us, letting Him reveal our weaknesses to us, then act on what He has shown us. The minute we act on truth, rather than a preconceived notion, we open the door to freedom in our hearts which allowed me to see my dad's perspective. Once I could see through his eyes, it changed everything. Restoration and freedom is not about agreeing with ideas. It is about seeing, believing, and acting on truth. God gave me the ability to have a deep compassion for my dad and his wife, who had hurt much more than I had believed.

When we love others, we no longer care about the outcome for ourselves. We live to see other lives get better. Removing self-protection from our hearts, or the fear of being hurt again, is the most freeing thing we can ever offer ourselves and others. The concept of loving ourselves, in order to love others, is a misconception. The reality is, we already love ourselves. Our favorite subject is us. We could talk about ourselves all day long. But let's see what God's word says about loving ourselves?

Mark 12:31 says, The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' This does not say, love your neighbor and love yourself. It says, love your neighbor as you love yourself. This implies we already love ourself.  I have met thousands of people, and most that I have met, love themselves. So to continue loving ourselves is not the medicine we need. We need to get our eyes off from ourselves, so we might learn how to love others, as much as we love ourselves.

John 15:13 "Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends. 14 "You are My friends if you do what I command you.…

To have the greater love, we need to lay down our lives for others. It is only when we put our loves, likes, dislikes, wants, and needs on a shelf and go after the needs, likes, loves, etc. of others, that we flow in the restoration process. I wanted my dad to love me, but only when that was no longer a goal, did love come in like a flood. My goal has switched. Instead of living to be loved, I now live to give love.

Once I could see from another point of view, I could not get to my dad fast enough. The moment that I walked into his house almost twenty years later, after the call, all I could think about was how my dad must have felt. How must a person feel whose child never took the time to find out why they would not want to see them. I know what it is like to be a parent and feel like your child could care less about you. It is a heartache extra ordinary.

The only thoughts I had on my way to see him from another state was 'I don't care what they say to me, I won't leave until he knows how much I care.'  I only care that he knows he is loved. The moment I laid eyes on him, my heart broke knowing I would allow almost twenty years pass without my dad in my life. Once I let go of me, it opened the doors to be free to love. Free to love the way Jesus loves. His love is perfect.

Here is a photo taken on that day. Restoration is right!

I spent four short hours with my dad, Linda, and my Aunt Marie, (his sister). It was four hours that continues to change my life for the better. What I received when I walked through those doors couldn't be written in a book or embraced in a movie. It was love personified, beyond human imagination. It was completely wrapped in a heavy coat from the armies of heaven with abundance on every side. The hearts of the four of us being healed, and laughter filling the room. Words needed not to be spoken, except, "I love you. Never forget, I have always loved you."

The story continues but this is too precious, too beautiful and too hopeful to keep to myself. I have to share with you, what is waiting in the house of restoration, is only a decision away. If you really want to be free from pain, let go of the past and allow your hearts desire be to love, the only way that is worth loving, like Jesus does. He died so that others might live. No, it does not mean you need to be hung on a cross, it means we put to death all we are, to give way to what others are, so that life can begin again. Be free from pain this day, and love.

Иисус умер за нас всех

Здравствуйте, друзья :

Я живу в Америке, стране свободных , но я могу честно сказать, что есть много рабство здесь ! Вот что я имею в виду , что Иисус умер за тебя и меня, но многие люди не воспользоваться свобод , что быть христианином должны принести ! Свобода любить , свобода заботиться , свобода говорить , свобода от болезни , свобода от болезней , свобода от многих, многих вещей! Это верно, не только Иисус умрет , чтобы мы могли жить, но Он хочет , чтобы мы жили жизнью с избытком ! ~

Просто подумайте о том , что в течение одной минуты ....! Вы знаете кого-нибудь, что бы умереть за вас? Вы бы умереть за кого-нибудь? Здесь, в Америке , земля свободных , мало кто бы на самом деле умереть за другого! Я не говорю, что это не произойдет , я говорю, что это случается редко ! Я рад, что я не должен был умереть физически для кого-то , но я думаю, что мы все должны умереть, чтобы нас самих для других! Например , приготовление кого-то еда умирает к себе и делает что-то для кого-то еще.

Ты и я , люди , полные ежедневных графиков , работы, друзей, семьи , развлечений, социальной жизни и выбора профессии ! Или те из нас, во всем мире , у кого нет возможности , живущих в условиях крайней угнетения, нищеты , болезни или болезни ! Мы люди , что Иисус умер за . Он умер за ненавистников Иисуса , он любит нас всех с вечной любовью ! Он любит нас с любовью , что мы не можем даже понять ! Убиваем , чтобы получить наш путь , Иисус был убит , чтобы иметь Его путь ! Его пути совершенны, Его пути высшим !

Он не имеет фаворитов, за исключением тех, которые живут исключительно для него , много раз они получают больше Его славы ! Но у него нет фаворитов, свобода быть любимым и освобождение согласно Иисуса , доступен всем ! Это не имеет значения , если вы убили кого-то , если вы ненавидели кого-то , если вы причинить вред другому, если вы никогда проклял Иисуса в свое сердце , независимо от того, что вы сделали , Его любовь и спасительной благодати свободы от ваших неправильного выбора доступно сегодня!

Я жаждал всю свою жизнь , чтобы знать любовь , как это. Я вижу девушек позволяет любому воспользоваться ими эмоционально, умственно , и физически , если она означает, что они будут показывать им внимание ! Я видел мальчики вред другим для того, чтобы получить одобрение со стороны своих сверстников! Иисус любит нас , Он видитхорошее и плохое в нас ! Он знает наши слабости и свои сильные стороны и, несмотря на себя, Его любовь , прощение и чистота сердца в духе , доступен для всех , кто соскучился по их сердца , чтобы быть полным любви !

Мы, люди были созданы, чтобы долго, чтобы быть любимым и расширить любовь ! Мы не можем утолить эту тоску с чем, кроме Иисуса! Он есть истина и Он есть любовь ! Иоанна 3:16 говорит, что Бог так возлюбил мир, что отдал Сына Своего единородного , дабы всякий, поверит в Него, не погиб бы , но имел жизнь вечную ! Это жизнь вечная можете начать прямо сейчас !

 Римляне 3:21-22 Но теперь Бог показал нам другой путь на небеса [ а] не "быть достаточно хорошим" и, стараясь сохранить свои законы , но на новый лад (хотя и не новая , на самом деле , для Писания об этом рассказал давно) . Теперь Бог говорит, что он будет принимать и оправдать нас - объявить нас "не виновен " , если мы доверяем Иисуса Христа взять грехи наши . И мы все могут быть сохранены в этом же образом , придя ко Христу , независимо от того, кто мы есть и что мы были, как . 23 Да, все согрешили , и все лишены славы Божьего идеала ;

Вы видите , никто из нас не хорошо, даже не один ! Мы были созданы, чтобы нужен спаситель , чтобы спасти нас от уничтожения мире, полном греха !

Только Иисус изменил мою жизнь , и у меня есть много других блогов, которые я написал о некоторых удивительных вещей Он один сделал в моей жизни! Я пытался в течение многих лет , чтобы исправить себя , но безрезультатно , он принимает силу и присутствие любящего Бога снести власть наших ошибок ! Мы все делаем ошибки , некоторые умышленно, некоторые просто через нашу воспитания, или вредных привычек ! Вы можете быть свободным, от грустных мыслей , ночные кошмары , болезни, одиночество ... ничего! Пожалуйста, дайте Иисус изменить вашу жизнь сегодня!

Я не прошу денег , или что-нибудь , я просто знаю, что единственное, что в этом мире жить для Иисус , и я надеюсь, вы узнаете, как удивительно Он слишком ! Есть замечательная жизнь в Иисусе ! Позвольте Ему изменить свой мир , в один прекрасный день за один раз! Получить Библию и прочитал его , как ваша жизнь зависит от него! Смотреть боль вчера начать бежать !

Я буду молиться за вас, а затем вы молитесь за себя! Иисус помочь этим читателям знать вас больше ! Рождение в них желание быть проданы для вас , чтобы иметь сердце мученика ! Дайте им пристальное сердце, полное любви, а не презрение ! Прости им Господа за все те ошибки, которые они сделали в их неспособности видеть, слышать или чувствовать ! Удалите все препятствия из их сердец , чтобы они могли чувствовать себя жизнь вашего спасительной благодати !

Теперь вы молитесь : Иисус, я нуждаюсь в тебе в моей жизни! Мне нужна ваша спасительная благодать ! Простите мое жестокосердие и вызвать меня на долго, для вас ! Возьмите всю свою боль, обида, непрощения , и грех прочь! Спаси меня от жизни уничтожения! Спасибо Вам Господь Иисус , дай мне знать свою любовь! Защити меня в вашей любви и пробудить меня в свой дух ! Теперь крестить меня в своем Святого Духа , изменить меня сейчас в эту секунду , освободить меня от цепей моего прошлого ! Мне нужно , Господи , спасибо за милосердие бесконечному , Аминь !

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